Merry Christmas! I'm too sad for words about the fact that there is going to be no snow for Christmas, but at least we have our decorations up to keep our Christmas spirit up.

Our Christmas Tree

Little Christmas Village. My lovely mother painted all the little houses

Great Grandma made this little delight. So excited to inherit it. And yes, this is the one thing I have requested to have when my mom dies. 

Our Santa collection, that the mother made. I have requested to inherit these as well.

To get a little more into the spirit as well, last Sunday the papa, brother and I went up to listen to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. We do this every year and it's always so great. This year we listened to Robert Gunn and Jane Seymour.


My dog is so weird. We put this jacket on him and he would not move. Even when we put his food in front of him he just sat and started and it, along with quite a few little whimpers.


I think that if my life were ever made into a movie, this song would need to be in it.


new song obsession. same artist.
Northern Wind by City And Colour on Grooveshark



           When you look at the world in a narrow way, how narrow it seems! When you look at it in a mean way, how mean it is! When you look at it selfishly, how selfish it is! But when you look at it in a broad, generous, friendly spirit, what wonderful people you find in it.
-Horace Rutledg-
found via


Today mama and I spent quite a bit of time cooking. Seriously. Started at 12 and didn't end until about 6 or 7, but geez, we got a lot done. Here's just a few of the things we made.

When you don't have a automatic mixer when making meringue, this is the next best thing. I wasn't about to hold that blender for 15 minutes.

The finished product.  Might I add that it was absolutely delicious. It was even said by my parents it's their new favorite dessert. (I'm going to believe they actually meant it and weren't just saying it because they have to..)

We also made some scones to go along with our dinner. 
Since it's Sunday, we decided that calories don't count. 
new song obsession. maybe even artist obsession.


Somewhere someone is traveling furiously toward you,
At incredible speed, traveling day and night,
Through blizzards and desert heat, across torrents,
through narrow passes.
But he will know where to find you,
Recognize you when he sees you

john ashberry 



"Why am I afraid to dance, I who love 
music and rhythm and grace and song 
and laughter? Why am I afraid to live, 
I who love life and the beauty of the flesh 
and the living colors of the earth and sky 
and sea? Why am I afraid to love, I who 
love love love?"

Eugene O'Neill


Every experience in life, everything with which we have come in contact in life, is a chisel which has been cutting away at our life statue, molding, modifying, shaping it. We are part of all we have met. Everything we have seen, heard, felt, or thought has had its hand in molding us, shaping us." 
-Orison Swett Marden


Spending my weekend with these lovelies.
Hope you all are having a great weekend as well.

Boyfriend got me pretty roses :)


"Life, i really believe, is about falling in love. with ideas, with stories, with experiences, mistakes, adventures, poetry, imaginations, old books, new books, movies, music, and, of course, people. everything that is worthwhile in this world is worth falling in love with, and i can’t imagine a better way to live one’s life than to be always head over heels." -unknown
(photo via Pham Minh Hoa )


"And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees--just as things grow in fast movies--I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer."
- F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby


1 year.

Wow. 1 year ago today, May 27 2010, I graduated high school. How has it already been one year?? I had so many plans for where I would be right now and what I would be doing. But I guess nothing really works out the way we plan for it, whether for the better or the worse. But I am happy to say I am very happy about where my life is right now, and the direction it's going in as well. I can't even begin to imagine how different my life will be for my 5, 10 or 50 year reunion..


oh the lies..

When I was younger I always thought that as you grew older you would grow up.. ha not true. I think that as I have grown, my maturity level has definitely gone down. I don't care as much about what people around me think, so I just kind of let loose and do as I please. I have some examples of that with a few of my fellow schoolmates..

 So I guess that guy knew what he was talking about when he said something about growing up, but not getting boring. 



Recently I learned about Keats' idea of negative capability.

In its simplest form, Keats' theory describes the ability to accept uncertainty--the capacity to have two opposing ideas in your mind without trying to choose one over the other. It's the ability to believe that two contrasting things are true, both of them, and that they can exist side by side.

Or, in other words, being satisfied with things that are unresolved.

And, well, wow. It struck a chord with me, this theory. How often I find myself trying to sort between black and white, yes and no, this way or that--when really, at the end of the day, what I'd actually like to settle on is both. Yes and yes. True and true. 

Because it's possible, it is, to both love and loathe. To both admire and pity. To both appreciate and--just as truly, just as ardently--regret. It's possible that what's right is not just a matter of either/or, that it's not somewhere in-between--that it's simply both.

For whatever reason, it's difficult to accept ambiguity; it can be a struggle to embrace that sort of doubt. And yet it happens. To all of us.  At some point or another, we know in our hearts that it's not A or B. 

It's C: All of the above.

(Photo: Bourne Wu


i'm still here

Hm I've been a little non-existent lately. And I'm not even going to try and make an empty promise about how I'll become a better blogger, I already know that won't happen.
But in the last few months I've had to made a lot of choices that weren't really expected, but so far I'm pretty pleased with how everything has turned out. Rather than me try to explain everything, I'll just show you some pictures.
went to nickel city and got way too many tickets

went to the Sundance Film Festival and saw celebrities galore
(ie Oprah, cast of The Buried Life, Zoe Saldana...)

Saw Fictionist with my dear friend

went to St George a few times

road trippin

became a "true rebel" at dixie state college

had a lovely time 80's dancing

started going to school to become a Surgical Technologist

and moved out again with a friend (this is my party face.)

So there's your update for now, plan on hearing from again in another 4 months.. haha